assumption | ( playlist )

now the world ✘ afi
summer, a morning, so pale, alone when they found me. as i remained sleeping, i heard them say, "this summer created, a boy, of abject misery." he was designed by you, he was designed by you. i looked inside (i) to find (wanted) the one i sent away. (to excoriate) i nearly froze, when i stepped inside, (i) to find, (remain) the flowers turned to grey. (and self mutilate) i closed my eyes, and kissed them. so like a lost child, i will hide. and like a lost lie, i will find... find a way to return to the ones who made me. cover your eyes and we'll die together.

monster ✘ meg & dia
his little whispers, love me, love me. that's all i ask for, love me, love me. he battered his tiny fists to feel something. wondered what it's like to touch and feel something. monster, how should i feel? creatures lie here, looking through the window. that night he caged her, bruised and broke her. he struggled closer, then he stole her. violet wrists and then her ankles, silent pain. then he slowly saw their nightmares were his dreams.

i have to return some video tapes ✘ breathe carolina
i want you to know, i've been in your apartment. this is the instrument i split your head apart with. it's not the first time i've had the impulse, unwrap your skin and axe off your limbs so i can come to terms and face the mask that's in front of me. i know there is no exit, i erased it from my memory. watch as my blood lust seeps out of my nights and contaminates all of my days. the violence playing my song, the orchestra of flesh and bone.

it's not ironic, it's obvious ✘ a skylit drive
excuse me, do i even know you? no you don't, no you don't! get a grip, oh my god get a grip! on what?! on what?! the final piece that i need is that spark in your eye. where did it go? my own disguise is right in my sights. we learn, we breathe, the sky hears my plea. hey you, i am the one you've been running from. but i know they don't know that maybe i was meant to live this way, in a love struck kind of way. in two dimensions always. i've been living in the light of the world, even you can't change me now.

the bird and the worm ✘ the used
he wears his heart safety-pinned to his backpack, his backpack is all that he knows. shot down by strangers whose glances can cripple the heart and devour the soul. all alone he turns to stone, while holding his breath half to death. terrified of what's inside, to save his life, he crawls like a worm from a bird. (all alone) crawls like a worm from a bird. out of his mind the way pushes him whispering, "must have been out of his mind." mid-day delusions are pushing this out of his head, maybe out of his mind, out of his mind.

my blue heaven ✘ taking back sunday
we swing and we sway as this tiny voice in my head starts to sing, "you're safe, child, you are safe." (am i coming?) "you're safe, child, you are safe." (am i coming through?) is this all too familiar? does it happen all the time? i'm just asking you to hear me. could you please, just once, just hear me? more than anything you wanted to be right. still it's you, you, it's you i can't deny. (you i can't deny) it's you i can't deny.

all on black ✘ alkaline trio
i put them all in black, the four walls of my bedroom, and i trimmed them in red, peeled your picture off the wall. and i'm living in lack of the blood sent from your heartbeat that arrived in your neck every time i salivated over you. what's upside down? what's coated in silver? this crucifix is my four leaf clover. sweet blasphemy, my giving tree, it hasn't rained in years. i bring to you this sacrificial offering of virgin ears. leave it to me, i remain free from all the comforts of home. and where that is, i'm pleased as piss to say, i'll never really know.

sold my soul ✘ the used
i took every chance to lash my tongue, you wore the scabs just like an angel. there's something about you. horrible things that i have done. seems this disease is slowly spreading. start running, what would you do? i crawl on the ground for cover, staying out of my mind to keep from dying, from dying. sold my life to bring the rain, maybe to wash me clean. sold my soul to stop the pain, hoping you'd set me free. all your fear, all your shame. you know that you can lay it all on me. you know that you can lay it all on me.

love lockdown ✘ kanye west
i'm in love with you, but the vibe is wrong, and that haunted me all the way home. ao you never know, never never know, never know enough, 'til it's over, love. 'til we lose control, system overload. screamin' "no! no! no! n-no!" i'm not loving you, the way i wanted to. see i wanna move, but can't escape from you. so i keep it low, keep a secret code, so everybody else don't have to know. so keep your love locked down, your love locked down. keepin' your love locked down, your love locked down. now keep your love locked down, your love locked down. now keep your love locked down, you lose.

into my web ✘ the used
do you feel stuck? it's all in your head. i'm mindless, i'm fading. i miss the other flies, already dead. i caught some, and left one. saw you turning heads and broke my neck. i learned to, they want to see me drop my jaw as you fly like a butterfly, straight into my web. maybe i will be the only one who could leave her. should i lie and just pretend that i couldn't kill her? maybe i can just pretend, as she flies into my web.

heart shaped box ✘ nirvana
meat-eating orchids forgive no one just yet. cut myself on angel's hair and baby's breath. broken hymen of your highness, i'm left black. throw down your umbilical noose so i can climb right back. hey! wait! i've got a new complaint forever in debt to your priceless advice, your advice.

**i regret nothing in putting kanye in this mix, suck iiiiit.